Loss in life

This sounds morbid but I have been thinking a lot about death. This thinking has made me realize that our life on earth is but a breath. We only have so long to impact others for Christ and to experience life. This thinking has made me thankful to God for each day I have. It has made me want others to know Christ as soon as possible. It has made me cherish my husband and children deeper than before and to let my family and friends know how much I love them. Even people from my past that have had such a huge impact on my life I have wanted to write and let them know thank you.

So since I haven't posted in a month, I am sure people have stopped checking my blog. And I know that a post this serious isn't the first thing people want to read but it has been on my mind over the past year. Up until two and a half years ago the closest person that had ever passed away in my life was my dog and although this was sad, you can't compare that value to a human life. Since two and a half years ago I have lost 6 people that I am close to or who have had a huge impact on my life. They all knew and loved God. They all are with Jesus. They feel no pain and are worshipping Him. I know this logically but it is weird grieving the loss of a Christian. You know the spiritual side of them going on but then there is this huge since of loss that hits your core. It is like missing someone but knowing that it may be a long time before you are able to see them again. It is knowing that your world and the world that you grew up in is not the same with out these people. And it is not just about your world-it is seeing the world of the people who were really close to these people being turned upside down. You feel the loss for them.

But praise the Lord for the lives of these faithful servants of God! Thank you Lord for John Jordan, Edward and Miriam Salluard the best grandparents a girl could ever have.I was very close to them and loved them a lot. Thank you for Jill Thornhill, a wonderful mother and wife to her family, a great friend to my family. She was like an aunt to me. Thank you for Colby Hayes who was a man that impacted many for the kingdom. He was a very special friend during highschool and my beginning walk with God. Even as a young person he loved God wholeheartedly and had a great sense of humor. Thank you for Clete Sipes who also impacted the world for Christ. His view on discipleship and his love for young college students was important in the development of who Jonathan and I are today.